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Sunday, November 06, 2005

[[mood swings]]

yes, i know i have them, (no comment, lans) i keep them under wraps at work (most of the time), but i fight them all the time. i feel frustrated, nothing seems to make me happy anymore. i get mad so easily, i'm lost, i don't know what to do. ~*j*~ left to go hunting, i thought with him gone and some quiet time i would just settle down some. but no, i didn't. i'm just as depressed as i was when he left. i want to be by myself, and ,"poof", i am. now i want people around me. i'm very lonely.
the funny thing is, i don't even know what i would talk about. i just don't want to be alone. I HATE THIS. this is part of the reason i think i could never be single again. its like someone else said in a post (he knows who he is) you become accustom, with the surroundings you are in, and they become "normal".
so now how do you break the cycle and free yourself? how do you get rid of the feeling inside, that's eating you alive. it literally feels like something is crawling around in my stomach, up my chest, into my heart, and thru my throat, i feel if i could get one good sigh, some sign of relieve...
ANYTHING!!! i'm tired of wandering aimlessly. thats all i seem to do.
sorry..........

[[Lorrellie Walks Alone On This Endless Road]]*|6:00 PM|

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