lans(yes its spelled right) and i have been talking, seems i've lost myself along the way. hes trying to help me. i've defined myself with the people around me for so long i don't know where i placed me. to find joy and happiness i need to look inside, but when i do, i run....... screaming into a corner. all i find is emptiness and pain. it shouldn't be that way i know. i have two beautiful, loving children, who need me to be strong, and they have seen me so weak lately. i feel so bad, because if you can't depend on your mom who can you depend on? am i just marking time until the next life? whats the lesson in this one? i need so many answers and don't know where to start looking. i do know i'm angry, no, not just angry i'm LIVID not that its anyONEs, in particulars fault. but i've been replaced, not just in j*~'s life, but, in the lives of a "few" others that makes me hurt. i know they don't care, so i don't see why i do... i hate love :(
Lilith is the ancient Sumerian goddess,
(and predecessor to Adam and Eve),
the first feminist and liberationist, boldly
helps us to stand up for what we believe
in, unbridled and courageous no matter
what the cost.
Lilith inspires us not to judge our opposite
sex, to respect them as our equal, and to
nurture equality in our environment.
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