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Saturday, February 18, 2006

[[in search of....]]

lans(yes its spelled right) and i have been talking, seems i've lost myself along the way. hes trying to help me. i've defined myself with the people around me for so long i don't know where i placed me. to find joy and happiness i need to look inside, but when i do, i run....... screaming into a corner. all i find is emptiness and pain. it shouldn't be that way i know. i have two beautiful, loving children, who need me to be strong, and they have seen me so weak lately. i feel so bad, because if you can't depend on your mom who can you depend on?
am i just marking time until the next life? whats the lesson in this one? i need so many answers and don't know where to start looking.
i do know i'm angry, no, not just angry i'm LIVID not that its anyONEs, in particulars fault. but i've been replaced, not just in j*~'s life, but, in the lives of a "few" others that makes me hurt. i know they don't care, so i don't see why i do...
i hate love :(

[[Lorrellie Walks Alone On This Endless Road]]*|8:51 PM|

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My name is Lorrellie. No one really knows me. Hell, I don't even know myself. I wish I did... I'm quite lost.

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