well, its been over a month, and here i am back again. i don't post much because i am so depressed. and all it seems to be is a bunch of whinning. but i have to get this out some way. i am awful, i know when i'm this depressed i should call friends and try to get out, but, i catch myself just sitting by myself, away from everyone and everything. i am becoming so detached from reality. i don't like being this way, i really don't. but i am. i'm lonely, sad, hurt and just don't want to go on. i just don't get it, i mean i have tryed my best to be good in life, and i'm the one who winds up alone. j~* has a girlfriend, a baby, people to be with, and what do i have? yes i'm mad!!! and jealous. its not fair. i'm always told, i deserve better, but what if better never comes along? i don't want to be the old lady down the street that all the kids are scared of. the only thing that has saved my life in the last year are ry and amber. i know if i were to do something to myself they would have to live with it, and i can't do that to them.
Lilith is the ancient Sumerian goddess,
(and predecessor to Adam and Eve),
the first feminist and liberationist, boldly
helps us to stand up for what we believe
in, unbridled and courageous no matter
what the cost.
Lilith inspires us not to judge our opposite
sex, to respect them as our equal, and to
nurture equality in our environment.
Reconnect with Lilith at www.goddess.com.au